At this time of year, this is the time I reflect on my life and think about how I can make it better. Believe me, some people think it’s a chore but I actually find it satisfying. It’s also the time of year for Christmas shows. I particularly love the ones on the Hallmark channel. I usually make a cup of hot chocolate and get comfy on my couch. I noticed while I’m sitting there watching the tv, my mind drifts off and I start thinking. I start thinking… I want a happy ending like these Christmas love stories. Why does it always have to be in the movies? Why can’t life allow me to meet someone and we work through whatever issues that we come up against and make it work?
Don’t get me wrong, I know life isn’t full of fairy tales but I want the happy ending. I want the fairytale. I don’t want the arguing and the disagreements or the compromising. I just want a soulmate. Maybe I’m just being naive but I want it. Lol. I think we all want that right? We don’t want to be single and we don’t want a relationship that is filled with what ifs.
If you think the world is out to get you and that every negative thing that is happening is because someone don’t like you then you’re wrong. Don’t beat yourself up.
I like that these stories always show someone that is always in a happy relationship but then someone comes along and just whisks them off their feet and they fall happily in love. I’m not a little girl anymore and I need to stop dreaming. How about a Christmas wish Santa? It’s Christmas and I will never stop believing in Christmas magic. I want to get that spark and never loose it. Love is a lot of things. And I want to be loved like I’m the only girl in the world and there’s no one else in the world who can come between that love.
45 and Still Writing the Story
